Het Beest In Mij

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I never had the lust for murder…
And I still, and I will remain without this lust …!
The fire broke out in my country … ohh my country!
I decided – with the instinct of the animal, not the human – to survive with my Fledglings from this fire…!
Yes… no, no I do not have the lust for murder and power, and I will not take side with any killer  party…!
So I practiced the behavior of a poor animal; to survive with my fledglings from this fire
Criminals were beyond imagination, and there wasn’t any  way to escape this madness in the deadly human era …!
I realized that we could not survive, even if we were stuck with a seventh land …
We decided on our great departure…The home is no longer home
The wind blew in the house! And the home will not escape of the storm and destruction whatever we did …
It is cruelty and horror…!
It is a distortion of creation and Nature
So I decided – with the instinct of the animal, not the human –  to defend life … defend myself …!
Yes, I will run away with my fledglings
I no longer have feathers to protect them from this violation and  death
My fledglings came to me and I could not bring them peace in the midst of this fire that destroys everything, everything, everything…
O man, your cruelty has destroyed the image of God…!

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(The cruelty of our enemy is a test of the nobility of our thoughts)
I read quite a bit about the old wars and modern ones, it did not leave in my imagination a perception that we humans may reach to this terrible extent of criminality
It’s the horribleness
It is a horribleness, to eat each other’s livers? And we are not cannibals ?!! it is a serious leap and a shift from the familiar, worthy of us to reflect on it.  
So I decided on to run away with my fledglings who had come to me as organic beings
 I said: I will run away  to a place less barbaric and more compassionate with my kids
This is the only way I had to protect them, and to protect myself
Maybe I become what I want,
I want to be a creature- no one assaults me, and I do not assault anyone, nor anything-
And train myself not to be afraid of tomorrow and man
Maybe I can find the path that leads to love
Only  love
Yes, only love
Then I will speak freely about love
…
I love you.